I’ve been writing this blog sporadically now for the past 2 or 3 years. When I quit, I had lost all passion for writing, because I had gotten too caught up in trying to get 2-3 posts out per week for an ad requirement. I didn’t like that one bit. I felt pressured and it wasn’t fun.
When I quit, I really missed it. Writing was my creative outlet, and my way to express and share with others. So, every now and then, for the past couple of years, I’ll come back here, and write a bit and remember that feeling, and it makes me miss it so much more.
For the past 2 years, I have felt God leading me somewhere. Where? I don’t know. I’ve told Ben many times throughout this year, I feel like a car in neutral, revving the engine up. I’m ready to go, to do, and I know He is the one revving that engine up, but I’ve simply not known where He wants me to go. I’ve been praying over this for a long time now, and I keep coming back to writing, and pursuing my own venture. But I’ve never made a move on that.
Every year, on New Year’s Eve, I write a letter to myself. It’s a recap of the previous year, and my hopes for the New Year. Do you know what my letter said when I opened it just 2 weeks ago? At the top, it said, “THIS YEAR I AM GOING TO”. But you know what? I didn’t. So…
I’m 30. Life is whizzing by. I have been so blessed with my family; an amazing husband, and 2 precious kids. Over the past few years, I’ve found myself doing what I was happy doing: taking care of my family. Don’t get me wrong, I am STILL happiest when I am taking care of my family. But what I lost over these last few years was my ability to say ‘yes’ to the things that challenge me and to go for it. I’ve chosen to sit back in the safe zone and be ‘comfortable’ with what I have. And there’s nothing wrong with that. But I know for me, God is wanting more.
So.
THIS YEAR I AM GOING TO.
Ben and I have said ‘yes’, and are taking the initial steps for something that we have prayed about for over 10 years. I plan on sharing about it one day soon.
As of this month, I also posted a video of myself on Facebook. If you realllllly know me, you know this was a redunkulous thing to do. And no, redunkulous isn’t a word. I’ve stepped out, said yes to God’s leading, and have started working on a new little venture.
So, what I’ve learned so far is that comfort zones are a really good place. You’re happy, content, and rolling through life. I liked my comfort zone. I didn’t want to step out. But what I’ve also learned over the course of the year is that when God says ‘GO’….you GO. Soooooo… I’m going (and learning) that growth doesn’t come from comfort zones.
Have a blessed day!
